My 2018 New Year’s Resolution is confidence! As the year ended, I put a lot of thought into what my new year’s resolution would be. I didn’t want it to be the generic and standard answer most people give when asked. I wanted to set myself up for success. That’s when confidence popped into my head!
Confidence is sexy! I want to have more of that. I used to have that all the time, but over the last few years, I started gaining weight, binge eating more, and struggling with my confidence. Part of this confidence that I needed to work on was self-confidence and body confidence. That’s one of the reasons I featured this picture of myself in a bikini over the summer.
This is a picture where I can tell I had put on some weight and normally, I wouldn’t want to promote myself like that. Afterall, back in 2012, I had lost all the weight and then some, and you can read about it here. Putting back on a little of the weight made me feel ashamed of my body and I began to hide behind bigger clothes.
I even stopped walking because I didn’t want anyone to see me. It was like I went from this tiny, confident powerhouse to this little microscopic speck. The thing is, I turned myself into this speck because I didn’t want anyone to see me. At my daughter’s graduation from nursing school, I even had my mom take down pictures with me in them. I just couldn’t bear the thought of anyone seeing me, judging that I had gained a little weight.
This had become such a big problem in my life, that I actually gained another five pounds or so. That’s why I created the Mermaid Detox Diet. Just like a lot of you, I want to lose weight and get back to my happy weight too. I also got sick of the constant forced dieting, to make myself fit into this image I had of myself. The worst part was, my problem all started back when I was still close to my happy weight. I had become obsessed with my weight and body and every square inch of me. This has all become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Confidence is Sexy
My 2018 new year’s resolution is to be more confident. More self-confident and more body confident. How do I plan to do this? Well, I’m starting with this picture. I know it’s not the most horrible picture in the world, but for me, after having a nearly perfect body for so long, this picture hurts.
I also created the Mermaid Detox Diet, because juicing for weight loss wasn’t working for me this time. I just couldn’t stand the thought of starving like that again to lose weight. I tried a few times, but my commitment was sorely lacking. My heart just wasn’t in it.
I plan to lose weight on this blog. I’m going to create a feature so you can watch me lose weight and get in shape in real time. I’ll also be getting real with you about what my weight is now and how that has affected me. I believe it’s one of the things that has held me back from getting involved in a relationship again. Confidence is sexy and I don’t have much of that right now, so it’s no surprise that I haven’t attracted a mate.
I have come to realize that it’s not just the weight gain that has cripled body confidence. It’s also because I have been inconsistent about working out the past few years. I used to workout religiously every single day. I went from that to being a couch potato and not wanting to deal with the reality of the situation.
So, part of my confidence building will be working out. I started walking on the trail again in the early mornings and nothing says weight loss like walking does. Plus, morning is my favorite part of the day and it gives me time to talk to the fairies on my nature walks 🙂
In addition to that, I downloaded a pilates app on my phone, and I love it. It’s pilates for weight loss by Lumowell. When I don’t feel like following the app because I like to do my own thing, I use my own workout sequence that combines strength training, yoga poses, and pilates all-in-one. I’ll be sharing that on the blog soon, so look for that!
Another thing that helps with both body confidence and self-confidence is dancing! A few days a week, I just put on youtube videos with my favorite dance songs and cut loose. The right song can really make you feel sexy!
I’m working on my self-confidence by building the Mermaid Detox Diet! I have had a lot of poor self-esteem issues over the last few years due to financial problems and feeling confused about what to do with my life. The only thing I really knew for sure was that I wanted to build a successful business. I knew I had a strong interest in health and wellness at a holistic level, especially in regards to food and nutrition.
It wasn’t so much that I was confused. I mean, I knew what I wanted to do. It was more like I was trying to live up to other people’s expectations of me. When you have financial problems and you are trying to build something in the long-term, people tend to want you to do things their way. As part of my self-confidence training, I’m not doing that anymore!
Self-confidence is not caring what other people think of you. It means that you can believe in yourself, no matter what other people think. That’s something I’m working on big time!
Part of raising my self-confidence is going back to school. I’d like to “officially” become a wellness coach or nutrition coach. Even though getting certified isn’t necessary to become a food and wellness blogger, I certainly don’t think it hurts! I can always be better and learn more about holistic nutrition.
Hand-in-hand, self-confidence, and body confidence are highly important! It’s no wonder my life kind of started stalling out a few years back. I feel really good about this new year’s resolution because getting back myself is all I ever wanted. What are your new year’s resolutions for 2018?
Please be sure to check out my Body Confidence Charm School and Body Confidence and How to Love Your Body! They were written from a place of confidence at the time and I believe they could be really helpful for you as well 🙂